me.....nowdays

nowdays, i am confusing my self. i want to be more productive and also independent in financial living. i want to have some small bussiness or something that i can do as my job.
i am sure about what i really want to do. but i thought there's something that i can do so that i can earning money (that makes me more productive n precious).
my english is not too good, and my educational background not too support me to get some job to do from home (i am a civil engineer from September 2000 ).
and now i am interest to have some part timer job from other besides civil works.
i was worked as a project marketing for general contractor at 2001, marketing assistant at yarn production industry and administrative clerk and project at general contractor at 2002-2005.
now i am doing planting - happy planting. .......................and also blogging-happy blogging.............. and i want more than happy blogging; blogging for earning something.
have suggestions? send me your message.

working abroad, i really want it. but how?

want to have opportunity to study abroad too.....but how? is there any chance for homestay mum like me? (i know this is a little late, but why can we?)

someone told me that i am too late for all of that. i know but i still want to try.
and that i am not focus; to much eager. okay, i give up and i am not gonna deny all.

sky are too impressed me much, full of dreams-hopping-coloring.
i am ambicious (too much for a homestay mum, might be) but i really want to 'reach the sky'.

i luv that sky, and i want to not only touch them, i want lay down there.
big and wide sky.
(04122007)